There was nothing extraordinary about it. It was no longer than the first joint of her thumb, with one edge folded over as though it had been pulled hastily from someone’s skin. Yet the faint medicinal scent brought back a memory she could not immediately place—a white room, a metal tray, Doctor Paloma speaking in a calm voice while rain tapped against the infirmary windows.
Mother Caridad set the tape on a clean handkerchief and reached for the telephone.
She paused before lifting the receiver.
For three years, she had tried to protect Sister Esperanza from gossip. She had answered every question from the bishop’s office with carefully chosen words. She had reassured the other sisters that charity sometimes required patience before understanding. She had arranged baptisms quietly, registered the children through proper channels, and made certain that little Tomás and Miguel were raised in warmth rather than suspicion.
But beneath all those practical decisions lived a truth she had barely admitted to herself.
She was afraid.
Not of Esperanza.
Not even of scandal.
She was afraid that someone she trusted had been hiding something from her inside the very walls she had spent her life guarding.
She dialed Doctor Paloma’s number.
The doctor answered after the fourth ring.
“Paloma speaking.”
“It is Mother Caridad.”
A small silence followed.
“Mother,” the doctor said, her voice brightening with professional warmth. “Is one of the sisters unwell?”
“I need you to come to the convent.”
“Of course. What has happened?”
Mother Caridad looked toward the open doorway.
In the corridor beyond, she could hear soft footsteps, the clink of cups from the kitchen, and Sister Esperanza singing quietly to one of the children.
“She believes she is pregnant again.”
This time, Doctor Paloma did not answer immediately.
Mother Caridad felt her fingers tighten around the receiver.
“Doctor?”
“I heard you,” Paloma said.
There was something in her tone now—not surprise, but weariness.
“You do not sound shocked.”
“I am a physician. I try not to react before examining a patient.”
“That is not what I meant.”
Another silence.
Then Paloma exhaled.
“I can be there before noon.”
“Please come sooner.”
“I will.”
Before the doctor could end the call, Mother Caridad added, “And Paloma?”
“Yes?”
“I found something in my office. A strip of medical tape.”
The doctor’s breathing seemed to change.
“Where?”
“Near the chair where Esperanza was sitting.”
“That may mean nothing.”
“Perhaps.”
Mother Caridad looked at the tape again.
“But you recognize why I am asking.”
“I will come at once,” Paloma said, and the line went dead.
Mother Caridad lowered the receiver slowly.
Outside, a bell rang to mark the morning hour. Its familiar sound moved through the convent with measured grace, calling the sisters toward their duties.
Usually, the bell settled her.
That morning, every note seemed to ask a question.
Sister Esperanza sat at the long kitchen table with Miguel on her lap and Tomás beside her.
Sunlight poured through the high windows, warming the stone walls and turning the steam above a pot of milk into pale ribbons. Sister Lucía stood near the stove, slicing bread while keeping an affectionate eye on the children.
Tomás had decided that his wooden spoon was a horse.
He galloped it across the table, making soft clicking sounds with his tongue.
“No riding near the milk,” Lucía warned.
Tomás stopped immediately.
“Horse thirsty.”
“Then the horse must wait until after breakfast.”
Esperanza smiled and kissed the top of his head.
“He is learning patience.”
“He is learning how to negotiate,” Lucía replied.
Miguel stirred against Esperanza’s shoulder. He was a quiet baby, round-cheeked and content whenever he was held. His fingers curled around a fold in her habit.
Sister Lucía placed two slices of bread on a plate and sat across from Esperanza.
“You look pale.”
“I did not sleep well.”
“Because of the baby?”
Esperanza glanced down at her stomach.
There was no visible change yet, but she had already begun touching it unconsciously, as if protecting something hidden.
“I suppose so.”
Lucía lowered her voice.
“Are you frightened?”
Esperanza hesitated.
“No.”
It was the same answer she had given each time before, but this morning it did not sound convincing, even to her.
Lucía studied her face.
“You are allowed to be frightened.”
“I know.”
“Mother Caridad will find answers.”
Esperanza’s smile weakened.
“She has been trying for years.”
“That does not mean she has failed.”
Esperanza looked toward the kitchen door.
Through it, she could see part of the cloister garden. A narrow path curved between rosemary bushes and white roses. Beyond the garden stood the old infirmary wing, closed most days except when Doctor Paloma visited.
A strange uneasiness passed through her.
She remembered waking there once.
Or believed she remembered it.
There had been a lamp above her. A cold cloth on her forehead. Someone saying, “You are safe.”
But when had that happened?
During her first pregnancy?
Her second?
Before either of them?
The memory dissolved whenever she tried to hold it.
“Esperanza?” Lucía asked.
She blinked.
“Yes?”
“You went somewhere far away.”
“I was only thinking.”
“About what?”
“I do not know.”
Lucía leaned closer.
“That is a troubling answer.”
Esperanza looked down at Miguel. The child’s eyes had opened, dark and trusting.
“There are pieces missing,” she said quietly.
“Pieces of what?”
“My memory.”
Lucía’s hand stopped beside the bread plate.
