That is what actually happened. There was no applause. There was a woman of sixty with a mop.
And I went to my meeting, eleven minutes late, and did not say why.
What I did not do.
I did not look at that child’s notes.
I want that written down because it is the only thing in this entire account that I am proud of without qualification.
He was on the system. I could have had his record open in about nine seconds from any terminal in that building, and I would have been able to tell you his birth weight and his blood group and who was at the delivery.
Thirty-one per cent of me wanted to.
And I have access to that system because sick children need me to have it, and the day I use it for anything else is the day the complaint becomes true.
So I did not, and I am going to keep not doing it, and when he is eighteen there will be an audit trail with my staff number nowhere on it.
And my sister Wren, who did one thing in 2023 that I have never properly thanked her for.
In the July of that year, six weeks in, she drove to Ellery and sat in my kitchen and asked me straight out whether I thought Rhett had made the complaint.
And I said no.
And she said: “Petra. Look at me and say that again.”
And I said no again, and I held her eye while I did it, because I am
extremely good at that and always have been.
And she did not argue. She said, “Okay,” and made the tea, and then she said one thing before she left, which I dismissed at the time as sisters being sisters.
She said: “Right. Well. Write down the date you decided that, because you’ll want to know it later.”
I thought she was being dramatic.
I wrote it on the back of an envelope that night out of pure irritation — 17/7/23, told W no — and put it in the drawer with the resignation letter, and forgot about it for two years.
Hollis Quayle has that envelope now. It is in a bundle, with a page number, as evidence of when I formed the belief and what I did about it, which goes to the question of why I signed in the February.
My sister, who is a dental nurse in
Ellery and has never been inside a courtroom, told me in a kitchen in 2023 to write the date down.
Where things are.
I went back to clinical work on the eleventh of August, 2024, in a paediatric outpatient clinic, with a mentor sitting in for the first six weeks, which was not required and which I asked for.
I am a consultant. I have been at Thornhill for eleven years and I will probably die there.
My sister Wren moved to Ellery in the January of 2024 and has not mentioned leaving.
