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“Two years ago,” Marcus said, “before we were even officially engaged, her cardiologist ran a full workup and told us plainly that a pregnancy could put serious strain on her heart. Possibly fatal strain, depending on how her body responded once labor actually started.”
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“And you let her try anyway,” I said, something rising in my chest that I couldn’t fully separate into anger or grief yet.
“I didn’t let her do anything,” Marcus said. “Nadia decided. I stood beside that decision because it was hers to make, the same way it would have been anyone else’s to make about their own body and their own life.”
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I made myself keep reading the letter, my hands shaking almost as badly as his had been.
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I know Mom and Dad would have tried to talk me out of it. I know you probably would have too, Elise, out of love, the same way you’ve protected me my whole life. That’s exactly why I didn’t tell you. I needed this decision to actually be mine, completely, without everyone I love trying to keep me safe from something I understood clearly and chose anyway.
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I’ve spent twenty-eight years having people assume things about what I can and can’t handle because of an extra chromosome nobody asked my opinion about. I wanted, at least once, to make the biggest decision of my own life without anyone stepping in to protect me from it.
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Marcus married me knowing exactly what this might eventually cost both of us. That’s not a secret he was hiding from you out of guilt. That’s the truest thing I know about how much he actually loves me — enough to stand beside a choice that terrified him, because it was mine to make.
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If I don’t wake up, please don’t let this turn into anger at him. Let it turn into raising my babies exactly the way you helped raise me — like nothing about them is less than anyone else in this family, no matter what any doctor’s chart ever says about them.
I love you. I chose this. Please believe both of those things at once.
Nadia
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I sat down hard on the hallway bench, the letter still gripped in both hands, Marcus sitting down heavily beside me, his own composure finally cracking completely.
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“You could have told me,” I said. “Two years, Marcus. I would have understood eventually.”
“Would you have?” he asked. “Or would you have spent every single day of her pregnancy trying to talk her out of something she’d already decided, the same way I almost did myself, more than once?”
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I didn’t have an easy answer for that. I thought about every protective instinct I’d carried toward Nadia since we were children, every time I’d stepped in to smooth something over for her, defend her, manage a situation on her behalf before she’d had the chance to manage it herself.
“I probably would have,” I admitted quietly. “I don’t think I would have meant to take the choice away from her. I think I would have anyway.”
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We sat together in that hallway for almost two more hours, waiting for any word from the surgical team, both of us reading Nadia’s letter again and again until the words felt worn soft from repetition.
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The surgeon finally came out a little after midnight, still in scrubs, exhaustion visible in every line of her face, though her expression, thankfully, wasn’t the kind that precedes devastating news.
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“She’s stable,” the surgeon said. “It was close. Her heart went into distress during delivery, exactly the risk we’d been watching for, and we had to move fast with an emergency procedure to stabilize her rhythm. But she’s stable now, and both babies are doing as well as we could have hoped at thirty-four weeks.”
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Marcus made a sound I’d never heard from him before, something between a sob and a laugh, and gripped my hand again, considerably gentler this time.
