Lorcan rang me in the November.
Three months. He had read the whole thing by then, because Fenella had made him, and he was not defensive about any of it and I want that in.
He said one thing I keep. He said: “I was twenty-eight when I said it. I’ve got a son who’s twenty-eight.”
They have the bag.
That was never in question. It is theirs and I would not have kept it for anything.
Except that they made me keep two things, and they insisted, and Fenella got upset about it so I stopped arguing.
The tab off the lemonade can. Which is round my neck.
And the last card.
And in the October I filled it in.
On the back, where he had written a question mark, in my handwriting, with the dates.
***Wife. Eight days. Present at the end.***
And I put my own name under it, because that is the form.
And then I started my own box.
Not out of sentiment. Because I sat on a floor in the September and worked out that sixty-eight out of four hundred and eleven is sixteen and a half percent, and that Walter Pryce knew that number and carried it around for nineteen years and never once told anybody, because there was nobody to tell.
There are eleven cards in my box.
Eleven people since the fifteenth of August, 2025.
Four of them had somebody come.
And the thing I actually want to say, which took me until about March.
Everybody who hears this wants the backpack. The weight of it, the old man in the suit, the twenty-two notebooks, four hundred and eleven people.
And it is a good four minutes and I have told it at two dinner tables and once, badly, on a course.
But the whole of it is in a sentence he wrote on the fourth of August about a woman he had known for seven days.
“She needs to be in somebody’s box.”
He was seventy-two and he had about eleven days left and he had one thing in the world that he could still do, which was marry somebody.
And he did not spend it on himself.
He spent it on a twenty-nine-year-old he had met the previous week, for a problem she did not have yet and would not have for another forty years.
And he did it in a way that meant I could not refuse and would not find out until afterwards.
That is not romance and it was never romance and the two of us never pretended otherwise for one second.
It is the most calculating act of kindness I have ever heard of and it took him eleven days to set up and it will still be working in 2065.
Because there is a card.
And when I am seventy-two, in a room somewhere, with somebody’s twenty-nine-year-old sitting in a chair by the bed — there is going to be a piece of paper in a box that says I was Walter Pryce’s wife for eight days.
And somebody is going to have to write something on the back of it.
He worked that out in a hospital bed in August of 2025 with a heart that was giving out, and then he pulled a tab off a lemonade can and put it on my finger and let me think he was frightened of dying alone.
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