And grief makes you the perfect victim for it. When you are drowning, you don’t ask hard questions about the hand that pulls you under, as long as it’s holding you. You just hold on. I held on to Todd and Megan for two years, and I mistook the weight of their expectations for the warmth of being needed.
Then came the lottery ticket, and the eighty-nine million dollars, and a very strange gift that money gave me, one I didn’t expect.
Clarity.
When you suddenly have more money than you could spend in three lifetimes, you stop being afraid. And when you stop being afraid, you finally see the people around you clearly, because fear is the fog that hides them.
I looked at my son, really looked, for the first time in two years, and I saw a man who had stopped seeing me at all.
My advisors set up a holding company to buy property quietly and keep my name out of the headlines. They asked me what to call it.
